LOVE

Loosing your mind
and going insane,
crazed and crushed.

Open to a stranger
that will stab you
in the back.

Vvoluntarily throwing
your self of a never
ending cliff.

Examening ones
faults and tearing out
it's sole.

Is this really what we wont in life,
is this really what we strive upon?
Do we love and die for something
that is going to kill us in the end?
Do you wont to rot away in a pile of crappy love?
Or rather live alone and die a happy death?

puppies

What would you do if there were two puppies in a pound but you could only take one home? What would you do?
The first puppy is sick and old and is not doing well.
But you fall in love with this puppy.
You wont to fix this puppy so bad.
You truly love this puppy.
And then there is the other pup,
it's perfect, spotless, so beautiful.
It looks so appealing,
you know you could be happy with this pup.
You would never fight you would never cry.
Which puppy would you choose?
I wont the first puppy more then anything,
but i have to choose the 2nd.
And it is killing me to leave the one i really love behind.
I wish i could have both i wont to have both.
But life sucks
and sometimes you just have to hope
that the puppy you really wont
will still be there when your 1st dies.
So i praying that you will still be there
for me when i get done living this lie.

move on

everyone has a place in this world,
some were they belong.
Even if your purpose in life
is to make someone elts happy
that is still a good purpose.
So all of you out there
who have made stupid cutting mistakes
stop bringing it up over and over again!!!!!
I mean my god,
if you keep acting all emo and sketchy
and pretending you mean nothing,
well then you can never heel.
SO STOP PIT TYING
YOUR SELF AND MOVE ON.
Be a better person this time.
But just stop reliving the past!!
And move on into the future.
Oh and mom you are doing great.
This was not for you!!!
thank you though

LIFE

someone talked about grading life,
so here is my take:
Ok people think i am smart to.
even with all As my friend thinks she failed at life,
but she did not because she is still her,
she is still taking her lifelong test so,
no she is not failing
she is winning
because she is still in the game.
Me on the other hand, i am "smart" sorta, but i hate that word cuz i am stupid at some stuff toooo..... cough cough math. But i think anyways i am getting an A+ in living life because, i embrace life,
i love life,
i love friends,
i love family,
i love skiing,
i love my MOM most of all!
so even though my grades arnt all that my life is.
and don't put it past you to be all that to,
tizz the season think of every thing you have,
think of everyone how loves you!
think of everyone who would not be ok if you were not here!!!!!
there would be millions!!!!!!!!!!
merry Christmas~!!!!!

bye

So 2 days left of school before i begin my 3 month vacation! But i don't think it is a blessing, yeah it is cool. But what will i miss? Who will i miss? Well i know who i will miss- MY MOM (hehehehe). i do love to ski, and i will come back riped and buff, (he he) but i will miss EVERYONE because you all are a part of my life. So if i don't get to say good bye, here go's.

I will miss all of my friends,
but this is the opportunity of my life,
so let me enjoy it.
Let me grow,
but remember,
there wont be a day i wont think of you
and with i were with you.

perfect

It has been so long since things were so perfect i don't even know what to do with myself. I am running around singing, which is not good. And well beening care free is so cool, i know it will end soon because i am leaving but forever in my life i will remember today. You helped make it perfect so thank you. Now i can return to reality but i will, from now on know, we are perfect. I love you!!!

assumptions

So when people make assumptions, like" because she hangs out with her she is ..." rrrrrrrrrr I hate this so much. I mean the color black has always been my least favorite color is the rainbow, but because people i hang with wear this A LOT! i am (ever if i am wearing BLUE) I'm categorized as an emo freak who cuts and is with the black scary club. Maybe this is an exaggeration, but still i am me so don't put me in a group i did not put my self in first. I love my friends but we are different, but we are different people, i don't wont you to change, i like you the way you are, but i don't wont to be the way you are, so don't do this to me.

a name

have you ever put yourself in to something so compleetly!
But then thought,
Is this really what i wont to do for the rest of my life?
But at this point you are stuck, you've made a name for yourself,
and too much money has been been put into making this name for your self?
And there is not enough money left to start over.
Well my name is SKIER!
But dam its cold outside.

snow

I played in snow today!
I was a secret agent!
With my best friend, but i am not going to say
her name cause i am not a bitch.
Not that she is cause she wrote about me,
i did not like that but i still love her,
I just dont wont to talk about people behind there backs, sooooo
i played in the snow with my best friend ******.